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Sunday, December 27, 2009

Christmas Photos

So I'm definitely feeling much better...back to "normal," if you want to call it that!  Christmas day really threw me for a loop, but I'm back on the up and up!  Although, I did hit a rough patch tonight when Lexi cried for Hailey.  I guess today at church they had all the big brothers and sisters get their little brothers and sisters for their first day in Primary.  Lexi was really sad that Hailey wasn't there.  She LOVES being a big sister, so I think it hit her a little hard.  We sat and hugged and talked about it and how one day she would have the chance to take her little sister to primary.  I promised her that tomorrow we would go to Hailey's Place with our journals and write her a letter.  That seemed to cheer her up and all got better.

Anyways, I wanted to share some pictures from Christmas this year.  Enjoy!

Lexi decorating Hailey's Christmas tree.

Our family at Hailey's Place

I thought that flag was so cute.  It looks just like her.
(Although, in all honesty, I don't recall her ever being that angelic!!!)

Hailey's Place looking so loved!

(Thank you to all of you who stopped by to visit our little angel!)

Santa stopped by!

We decided to keep Hailey in our annual ornament exchange.
She "got" Lexi, so we felt a "lellow beep" would be fitting!
(That's Lexi's sign from Hailey!)

Us with the life size cardboard cutout of Hailey from my sister.
(As you can see, I don't quite look my best...It was a rooooough night!)

By the way, I do actually love that cutout of Hailey.  
I can't look at it very often though, due to one of two things occurring:
1. The floodgates open full force
2. I just about crap my pants thinking she's seriously standing there.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the pics!


  1. when i heard about the cutout i didn't know what to think, but now that i've seen your family picture with her in it i actually think it's cool that you can have a family picture with everyone again!

  2. I can't believe Sean is giving her rabbit ears! Typical Sean!! :)

    You guys are AMAZING. I'm so sorry it was a rough Christmas for you Wendy. I can't begin to imagine (as I've already said a thousand times on your blog). I think, as someone else mentioned, these moments will continue to come in waves, but hopefully each year will get just a little easier, a little less painful for you. If you could get through the first Christmas, I'm sure you'll be a little better from here on out.

    Just keep looking at your other two beautiful (and they ARE BEAUTIFUL!) daughters and know that you're still blessed. You WILL see Hailey again. But I'm sure it's so hard to not be able to hold her tight right now. Maybe the cutout will give you some peace. At least you can give her sweet little face a kiss from time to time! :) What a neat idea.

    Hang in there sister. You're doing a great job.
    Jenae from PA :)