This blog is an uncensored look into my soul. I am writing this as part of my healing process, but am leaving it public so others can follow me through my journey.

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Friday, September 4, 2009


Well I don’t really know where to begin with all this, so I’ll start first by saying thank you from the bottom of my heart to each and every one of you for your immense love, compassion, and support, not only to myself, but to my entire family. People we haven’t heard from or talked to in years have come out of the woodwork to be there for us. It has been beyond uplifting and miraculous. As hard as this experience has been, it has totally strengthened my faith in mankind. You, yes you personally, are an amazing human being who deserves to be blessed for the service you have just given.

I have been feeling very impressed over the past few days to start a blog chronicling my experiences and feelings throughout this new and most difficult journey in my life. These first few weeks my entries will probably be very long, but I have tons to write and share and catch up with you all on. So just read at your leisure!

So many people have been telling me that they are constantly wondering how we are doing, what we are feeling, what we believe, etc. I also know that many of you probably have tons of questions and aren’t quite sure how to ask or if it’s appropriate, so here I am to answer them.

For those of you who know me well, you already know that I talk a lot (and I type like I talk). You also know that I am an open book. I am very candid and honest with people about myself, which is exactly how I plan to be in this blog. I plan to just let it all out, tell you how it is, no holds barred. So be prepared for that!

My intention is to write each day, even just a little bit. So please feel free to log on daily to see how the day is going. I will most likely post each evening before bed. So I’m hoping that this will help at least someone…even if its just myself!

We are currently doing quite well. I always used to say that it’s easy to say you have faith in God when all is well and life is good, but it’s when your life as you know it is shattered that you really know if you have faith or not. Well I can confidently say that I HAVE FAITH! I have not once cursed God or been angry with Him over this. I know He loves Hailey and me and only does things for a reason and for our best. If it weren’t for my faith, I would literally be pumped full of sedating drugs, in a ball, in a mental hospital. I would not be able to deal with it. But instead, here I am: getting up each morning, putting one step in front of the other, continuing with life, and sometimes even having a laugh or two. Yes, I am devastated…literally beyond any words. No, I am not hopeless…I am full of hope! That keeps me going everyday.


  1. Thank you Wendy. You've increased my faith too.

  2. Wendy, your faith and hope is a testament of your love and trust in the Savior. Thank you for your example of goodness. I love you! Christine

  3. Hope is to believe God is with you, Faith is to know He is with you! Faith is my number one belief, so muchso it is tatooed on my right wrist! peace and love- corey rodgers

  4. You are absolutely right!! No one can ever understand how another person feels, and no one can tell you how to deal with your grief and pain. I lost my son, 25 years old, in an accident on October 3rd, 2010. He was my only child. The pain that I feel at times it so unbearable, that I can't explain it. My heart aches all the time for my son, and it's the worst pain I've ever felt.

    My heart, thoughts, and prayers go out to you and your family. I cry ever day as well, and I, too, try to hide as much as possible from other people. I'm alone during the day because I work at night, and it's very hard to sit and think about him. I just sit and cry.

    I know my son is with God because he was saved and baptized. I take great comfort in knowing that I will be reunited with him one day. But for now, the pain of his passing is very, very hard to deal with.

    Barb Yedinak