It's so real to me that I imagine her as alive as if she were sitting in her apartment in Boston. Really the only difference is that I can't call and talk to her or visit her whenever I want. Unfortunately, that's kind of a big difference and even the faith and knowledge that I have doesn't take away my sadness to see her go. I'm really going to miss her.
I read a book called, The Message, right after Hailey died that gave me such peace and comfort in regards to where she is. It's written by a man named Lance Richardson who spent three months in a drug induced coma. During that time he left his body several times and visited the Spirit World. The book is his account of what it's like there and what he learned. Of course, not everyone will find this believable which is totally fine with me. I will say, though, that I believe it 100%. It follows exactly what my religious beliefs tell me is true, not to mention, that he gives several experiences that really can't be disputed. (For example, he went and watched his children in their classrooms and upon waking up from his coma he was able to describe exactly what they were wearing, where they sat, and what questions they asked.) That's enough for me to believe, and honestly, if for some reason I'm wrong it's okay with me because it gave me the comfort I needed in this lifetime!
Anyways, as I've been thinking of my Grandma and her reunion with her family members who have died before her - in particular, Hailey - I can't help but feel the joy in her soul to finally be out of her 94-year old body and free for the intense pain she's felt for so many years! I decided to look back through the book for some comfort and here is one passage that I read:
"I watched numerous people pass through that veil while I was there. It was most enjoyable. I witnessed an elderly woman whose family anticipated her arrival. They were jumping up and down excitedly, as if waiting for a loved one to come off an airplane. ... Upon seeing the group, the woman's expression turned to one of absolute splendor."
"The group began to walk away together. "They are going to where a family celebration has been planned," Randy explained." (Randy is Lance's cousin who passed away 20 years prior.)
I could quote this entire book! It is seriously one of the best and most exciting (if you will) books I have ever read in my lifetime! It gave me so much hope and peace when Hailey died. I highly recommend everyone check it out...even if you're not a believer, it's still very interesting.
Anyways, selfishly I wish my grandma were still here, as I also do Hailey, but unselfishly I think they are so lucky to be where they are. They are even more a part of our lives from there than if they were physically back here on Earth. I seriously look forward to the day when I get to go be with them again and check out that Spirit World, or Paradise, as we often call it.
My Grandma meeting Joey for the first time, a week before she died.